Its been a long time

So this year has been a roller coaster and I haven't had much time to do anything, much less keep up with a blog. Hey everyone! As this year is coming to a close I hope everyone has had a much better year than I have, and if not, hey the new year is around the corner! So heres a snapshot of my year:

• Started school at Ivy Tech Community College majoring in Elementary Education (this is going to change as soon as I get my associates)

• Been in TWO relationships...

• But have had my heart broken THREE times

• Made a new friend!

• Lost a friend

• Cooked up some great recipes

• Thought about getting a tattoo

• Didn't get a tattoo (those things are so expensive!!!)

• Had my bank account hacked into and money stolen!!! >:(

• Saw exactly ONE movie at the movie theatre this whole year! (dont remember what it was though)
• Found some great music!!

Let me know what you've been up to this year been up to this year!!!!

Life-Realization

I am always thinking about helping people. Different ways I can understand the way people think, the reason why they do things, the reason why they feel certain things. I feel that I have applied chess to my life: I try to think 2 or 3 steps ahead. I think: If i say this, they are going to respond with this and this, so maybe i should say this instead. I do this with emotions too. I hate hurting people, even when im the one being hurt. I dont think whats best for me. Instead I try to satisfy everyone else. I guess this is a good thing, but what I am trying to say is, I realized that I cant help anyone unless I help myself. I have to care about me once in a while. I dont even know who I am...

Help

Im tired of lying about my feelings just to avoid an argument...Im going to drive myself insane with all these cooped up feelings that I cant do anything about...